其实这两个月有很多要分享的,但都没什么动力和时间。
今天为什么会有动力呢,因为心情糟透了。
人,真的可以很善变,很做作,很现实。
当你有利用价值,你就会哄着被需要。当你已经不被需要了,也不提早通知一声,一脚踢你走。
我也不知道牺牲这一年的时间干嘛。当别人都在向前走。我却在原地踏步,还退了几步。
到最后得到的是什么,就一句 “你去找工了咯,车自己供咯,油自己打咯,给家用咯”
什么叫“去找工了咯” ? 我没找吗,是谁不让我找的,我为什么没找?别人问我做么还没出去做,我都不好意思讲啊,都是为了你啊。你现在last minute跟我讲这句话。我竟然得到的是这些。我很不甘心啊!这样子讲话的语气对我很不公平啊!
但我可以跟谁讲?没有人。
其实我已经有想到这句话的到来,只是想不到真的是把话讲成这样,真的被我猜中了,真的那么现实。
所以有什么打算呢? 暂时来说当然是找一份工咯。
在那之前我会提议把车还给他,自己供一辆便宜的,比如说myvi? viva? 够便宜了吧。
但不知被不被接受。
说完后心情没那么down了,看来今晚也是会以泪洗脸睡觉了。
拜拜~
又到三月了,又要过完了。这个月真是起起落落,风风雨雨特别多。

吉隆坡几乎每天下雨,刚开始觉得没什么,蛮好的,不料,竟和我的心情一样,每天过着平凡的日子,刚开始觉得很普通,没什么不一样,怎知越下越觉得奇怪,怎么天气怪怪的,我的普通的一举一动都被监视,都被bookmark成为我的要害。

我知道有时我真的很不会做人,就是因为不会做人而让身边的人不开心。其实我有时真的很需要有人可以帮我做主,因为我拿不到主意,好像时常做错决定,不管是家人还是男朋友,我都夹在中间,很多时候就是不会做人而弄到两边都很难搞。我也很难搞。都是我的错,希望经过这一次的教训,我会学精点,会做人一点,胆子大一点,敢做一点。

一直都说要找工,要找工。找到现在都没找,都不知可不可以找,哎,每次都是酱,有没有一次让我自己做主。我应该要开始写cover letter了,要快点了,我真的会变得很懒,每天头脑空空。

我希望自己能有事业基础,然后又稳定的经济基础,也希望可以和另一半一起成长,希望他也会加油,建立好事业和经济基础,这样我们就可以实现说过的。就算真的言之过早,我也希望你好。就算真的有缘无份,我也希望你好,不后悔当初冲动和大胆地和你偷偷在一起的决定。不管怎么样,要爱别人,首先要爱自己,要爱自己就要让自己努力一点,过好一点,基础打好一点,酱才可以爱别人。

这个月下的雨又够多的了,差不多每天都下。乌云密布。日本又不幸遇上天灾,8.8级的地震,真的吓人。加上海啸,加上核电厂的爆发,辐射又加强了严重性。人类别再伤害地球了,哪怕有一天顶不顺,地球要大发雷霆,世界末日就惨了,我还有很多事还没做,我还没有报答父母养育之恩,还没有跟弟妹们相处个够,还没有和心爱的人过下半辈子,还有很多还没尝试的东西,我不想这么快结束。希望人类会在这件不幸的灾难中得到教训。马来西亚还说会继续核电厂的发展,我看还是三思。

希望日本的灾民快点振作起来,摆脱阴霾继续出发,再来多一个北海道,我都还没去过就没有了!

真的希望雨别再下不停了,和太阳公公平衡平衡下嘛。少了阳光,怪不得我们的心情都比较低落啦。

好啦,停笔,再会。
Sorry for not updating my blog for quite some time. Life is all about working at 10am morning and end at 10pm night. What to do? Everything needs money. Money, money, money. Although life is boring when you work everyday, but the result of your hardwork (which is money) brings you joy and excitement. So can we say money is not important? Money is SOOoooo important ok.

December was a great month. My sis and bro enjoyed their long holidays, my birthday is December, and many great things happened in December. I got a new member too in my family.=>



Handsome, isn't he?


Also, my family and I shifted to new house in December.




On the same day, Chiu Chern, Zy Lei, Wei Lik, Kok Hoong and Yeong How celebrated my birthday.




(From left: Chiu Chern, Wei Lik, Kok Hoong, Yeong How)

(Next to me: Zy Lei)


(Alex and I)


In January, my dearest college friends, Michelle, Sharon, Mun Yee, Wei-I and Reuben also celebrated my belated birthday at BSC. They bought me a strawberry cheese cake, which is so delicious.


Thank you once again and I am so glad to have you all as my friends. Love y'all!


In Jan, I spent my free time buying new clothes and new things to celebrate Chinese New Year. This year CNY is different from the past as my family and I planned to go Pulau Langkawi instead of balik kampung.


Altogether, 8 people, including Alan.








We went to Penang too to taste the local food and went to 极乐寺(Kek Lok Si Temple).


I Langkawi

On the eighth day of CNY, is the “bai tin gong” (拜天公) day. We had lion dance in my house.





lol...


In Feb, nothing much except work. And one thing did happened, someone hacked my fb account. Deng! everything inside gone. Feel like fucking that idiot if I were a boy. Too bad, gotta tag back all the previous photos i guess.


Mom asked me to look for work in March. Totally have no idea after so long.


Good Luck! Bye!